One- 365 days/52 weeks/12 months of happiness

I’ve been going through a lot for the past couple of months and honestly life hasn’t been the best. I know, there’s ups and downs in life but mine was a hella long roller coaster ride. Making my biggest decision to transfer to another school, finding a part-time job, forgiving people and coping with anxiety wasn’t exactly easy. Having no one by my side who understands how I feel, I have no other choice but to deal with it by myself. Being out from sports and doing activities I love for such a long time indeed made me very depressed. After tearing my ACL and fracturing my L4/L5 facet joint, I wasn’t able to really be myself anymore. However, things got better and I’m currently pain-free and am really happy. I am back running, dancing and jumping. However, as always, I am building back up slowly so I will not re-injure myself. I have been through a ton of set-backs during my gymnastics career that I’ve learnt a lot from. I will be having my first ballet performance in a couple of weeks time after almost a 5 years break and I am going to put in all I have for it.

I generally love to be surrounded by positive and happy people. Recently, so many things happened and added unnecessary stress into my life. I honestly hate interfering with peoples’ lives but I’m always dragged in for some god damn reason and sigh man why. Please just be more mature, understanding and just let it go. If it’s meant to be, it will be.

Apart from that, I’ve been learning new things and meeting new people in my pt job. This coming summer, I’ll be visiting my mother/fatherland and hopefully am able to squeeze in a solo travel to somewhere. Right now, I’m happy that I’m finally learning to live in the moment. After all, what’s the point of life if you’re constantly worrying about what’s to come?

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365 days to 2015 [Delayed]

I’ve had a great year, not much complaints but I love a new beginning. I honestly don’t know what to expect of the new year but i’m excited about beginning a new chapter and experiencing new things. I was so stoked about counting down to the new yearr just a few days ago but right now, i just rly feel like pausing time for the time being. I guess i’m just afraid of what will come my way in the next year & how it will change me/everything around me. Although I did kinda complaint in 2013 but i’ve definitely taken away many things from all that has happened. One thing’s for sure is that i’m extremely grateful for the people whom i’ve met this year & people who have seen me at my lowest point but never left. 

{13 things from 2013}

1) Made new friends, got closer to different groups of people & will stay very close to my heart. Truly blessed ❤

2) had an awesome summer {Singapore, Thailand, Malaysia, Vancouver}

3) Got my L

4) made a comeback, left knee getting better but not 100% yet 😥

5) did self-reflections which did slightly changed me

6) Celebrated my 18th birthday with people I enjoy being with

7) Spent quality time with amazing people

8) had my first slow dance with a guy

9) Baked a ton of treats 🙂

10) Done with grade 11 & onto 12.

11) Solo travel

12) Being active in school events

13) Became surer of what I wanna do in the future. Honestly,i’m still pretty conscious of my decision because i know that the degree and the university i’m aiming to get in is definitely a challenge.

2014 is gonna be one hectic year. The stress will definitely hit me soon and all i’m hoping for is that i don’t take it out on anyone and not neglect my family and friends.

 “ I can do all things through Christ who gives me Strength”

Wishing everyone a happy new year ❤

Dreams

they give us something to look forward to, to work for; they brim with potential and give us a sense of great unfulfilled and unrealised potential;

make us feel we’re bigger and better and more important than we just are at a point; that we’re meant for greater things;

that take us away into our own world, a virtual world, do away with the harshness and judgement of this world;

a peaceful, quiet place where you find solace and comfort, less consciousness, friendlier lighting, gravity defying even,

greater elasticity and expansivity of thought, creativity, and imagination, life, more than life itself,

to be put into action, hope, faith, daring, effort, toil, reward.

there to be dreamt of, fought for, still pursuing; on the brink, already fulfilled and realised; there to be broken; there

Like sleep, like emotions, like change of tide, like day and night,

Dreams –

We go in and out of them;

Dreams –

I still believe in you.

“I have a dream.”

It’s still the same dream.

 

My knee surgery…

My knee surgery experience has taught me to take a positive approach to any life challenge that comes up and you can do the same by stepping back and taking the time to really think about where the opportunities are hiding when presented with life challenges.